Ah, life got incredibly super crazy lately, don't u think so? There's sth evil in number 11 lol. Well, whatever happens at least we can say that we live in interesting times. Also, being a citizen of the world got hard. *sighs* I would never even assume that things which take place so far away could affect me in any way. But they do~ well. Poor world, I wonder what will happen to u next? Sa.
This is funny. People are used to take many things for granted, eg I sit here in front of my PC , inside my pretty, safe (and own) room and I do not expect that something bad could happen at this very moment. But who really can guarantee you this? Your insurer, climat you live in, the politicians? *pff* I wish any of them could actually give u appropriate certificate that your future is rather bright and ok, oh, maybe with few drops illustrated at some curve. He (or she) would be the Minister of Future's Safety. lol Another irrational work in government which you would have to pay from your taxes.
Thinking about future scares me sometimes. I mean, it is rly good to make plans and thinking what's next but ... It's like my today's talk with mom when i came back from meeting Ace&Arsenal. I tried to imagine what I want to do after getting BA but I could not rly tell. I was sure I want to study more and find work as a teacher, and that I want to live in Cracow. It may seems ok but it is not concrete. I lack being conrete about my future and I don't like it.
I will use kimura again to show how i feel about this,

(lol honestly i just love this photo and had to use it somewhere anyway)
On the other hand, I guess not being concrete is always better than not having any plans, even if they do not have those essential basics. Because I have some plans deshou, like for summer voluntary service, learning for exams, working as a teacher (even my group says i would be good at it so sry, there must be something in it!!), traveling. I do want to realise those plans and i'm kinda ok with just the fact of having any aims in my life. I know many people who do not have any of them yet (or already) and even if it's my youth stupidity I think that's the amount of this youth which I could cherish.
Yosh, minna~! Let's try to find more pleasure in our everyday life. No matter what happens or what is waiting for us. At least unless they won't create Minister of Future's Safety office xd.
That's all for philosophical crap. So pesimistic lol.
Im listening to Ga-in's step 2-4 mini album and im delighted *_*.
( 20 questions meme under the cut )